• Hard Week•
I’ve got three rounds of chemotherapy left (#6 on Tuesday), 5 weeks of radiation will follow, followed by another expansion appointment, 2 surgeries, & a lot more screens after treatment. So..... A LOT more to accomplish, but I’ve already done SO much and I need to remember that. I need to celebrate my wins.
Sadness has definitely set in. It’s so much to take in at times. It’s hard to look at myself (bald and boobless), my energy is at an all time low, my WHOLE body hurts from neuropathy, & I’m just sad.
I miss my old life. I miss my energy. I miss me.
I usual post pictures of me when I’m feeling good, have my wig on, & makeup. But most days I’ve got HUGE black bags under my eyes, no makeup, skin is splotchy and I look sick. But I know it’s temporary. It’s all temporary.
This week has been incredibly hard and exhausting as Miles got extremely sick and we needed up at Doernbecher Children’s Hospital all day yesterday. Lots of tests to make sure he didn’t have an awful infection but he is ok. He will be ok. We are home resting today and will go back to the doctor next week for another checkup.
I so appreciate all the messages, prayers, and love. Please keep it coming. Many of you ask what you can help with and since I’ve been so busy or sleeping, it’s something overwhelming for me to come up with a list. But I do need help. I do. I came across this list that will help. Pick something that you are comfortable with and reach out with a date. And I can post the mealtrain and gofundme if you aren’t local.
I’m still not working a lot and money is tight so anything helps. It ALL helps.
They say cancer takes a village and I couldn’t do any of it without you all.
I love you all so much and THANK YOU for being part of my journey and lifting me up. 💕
I can do this..... I WILL do this.